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See You In Portland (MI)
04:39
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lies my teacher told me
she never told me life would be so bland
my head is empty in thought again
i will never be 10 again
and life its going to kill me
its going to kill me
of that i'm sure
and god has disowned me
she never loved me or so they say
don't you get the picture i paint yet
i'm just scared now
i'm scared of regret
fill my lungs with air so i can sing
songs of struggling
i'm struggling to breathe
you missed me
and i thought you heard me crying in the other room
let's change this soon
my 10 year self is lying dying on the floor
i grew up too soon
and all of these fucked up people living just to die
its wasted life
and i'm scared of all the things i think but never say
it changed me that way
don't you get the picture i paint yet
i'm just scared now i'm scared of regret
fill my lungs with air so i can sing
songs of struggling i'm struggling
to breathe
you missed me
with innocent notions
you rarely smile
and neither do i
don't you get the picture i paint yet
i'm just scared now i'm scared of regret
fill my lungs with air so i can sing
songs of struggling i'm struggling
to breathe
you missed me
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2. |
Untitled Song
03:24
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feelings of resentment
childish assessment
of passion
i'm letting it go to my head
because i'd rather be dead and gone
than shake your hand
i will make it on my own time
and fashion
i'm letting it go to my head
because i'd rather be dead and gone than shake your hand
feelings are lost
chords that disconnect it
i'm in a basement with friends and it's all that we have
it's all we need
music with connection
they burn the houses with us but we always return
we always return
awake alone and finding it hard to find hope and yet the consequences of life are easily found
i found myself alone and writing on walls with ink that no one could see yet the illiterate think they can read
i'm defending myself from the words they were taught
in the books they never read
the lines i left unsaid have found their way to paper
from this pen laced with anger i feel towards myself
and everyone else i feel is acting in a fashion they are laughing
in a failed attempt to feel happiness in this crowded room
i'd rather not breathe
i'd rather not breathe
you call me a failure
but you are the one who'll never love
you call me a failure
but you are the one who'll never love
music's been lost again
built by your ignorance
i don't give a damn about one thing you say now
feelings of resentment
childish assessment
of passion
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i feel impatient selfish and torn
i made you this painting it's shitty yet pure
there's blood on the pavement
snow on the ground
i'm hoping for time i'll see you around
just take my hands don't be afraid watch everything change
i'll make you laugh if you would stay
i know you can't so i will blame myself like i always do
and watch as you will leave just like the one before you
i had a sadness searching for gold
i found that my souls been auctioned and sold
i'll fake my smiles and sing while no one is listening
just take my hands don't be afraid watch everything change
i'll make you laugh if you would stay
i know you can't so i will blame myself like i always do
and watch as you will leave just like the one before you
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4. |
Frest Bends
00:39
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My mama said you could fail
but failure means you try
so if you fail keep a smile
your friends are with you.
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5. |
Whiskey Song
02:56
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i'll say a prayer
for anyone who cares
god wasn't listening because he isn't there
i'll build a world where drunken thoughts will rule
and whiskey is beautiful
i lost my place but a drink will kill my cares
my wife and kids are gone because i wasn't there
i killed their hopes with the love they'll never get
their eyes were beautiful
whiskey tastes like water
my vomit tastes like whiskey
my will is broken
the bottles almost empty
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6. |
Valentines Day '12
03:36
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you sang a song that i liked
it spoke of parables lessons of life
it wasn't much of a fight
they brought guns
and i brought a knife
its what they want
i'm hollowed out
atleast i know it know
they're not honest
it's so obvious
i know it now
and for a second i thought it was over now
i feel so hollow
they came shrouded in night
kissing a crucifix dressed in white
it wasn't much of a fight
they brought guns
and i brought a knife
i'm sick of waiting for a better life
here's your valentine
we're all staring straight to the sun
that has blinded us
and for a second i thought it was over
now everybody feels the same pain
so just look me in the eyes
and know there's tears trapped in my eyelids
because i know you will die
everyone i know
then i hope to see the faces of my family and friends
when i step back and retrace it
i see we're closer to an end
everyone i know
there were bloodstains on the carpet
he was someone else's son
feel the tears break past my eyelids
and release my pain in floods
everyone i know
i feel so hollow
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7. |
A Song For My Brother
04:01
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as the tv brings me back to life
with the sound of lies
and the death of a soldiers name that was stuck in my throat
as your throat spews out words of shit
for your prophet
where is your heart
because my heart is swollen in my throat
your heart won't know
a dead soldiers soul telling me of war
a war that them rich will never know
they won't know
they'll never go
and nor will their kids
you caught me carving myself red
because i'm always awake and i'm always alone in the end
finding hope in songs
the notes remind me of times when i wasn't so scared and alone
so i hope you enjoy the cash you made
from the heartache and the blood
the blood that runs in all our veins
my brothers veins and in my heart
you caught me carving myself red
because i'm always awake and i'm always alone in the end
finding hope in songs
the notes remind me of times when i wasn't so scared and alone
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